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Have you come here to kill me?

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Shadowfish
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devops
“Quick, get a new title!”

DevOps
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What has my quest led me to? Where is it going? I started out with a dream of working in the military as an Air Force Ranger.
I quickly realized that I am neither the material nor possess any traits that could remotely benefit the army. So, I switched to graphic design—not the best move, I know.
I vividly remember witnessing my friend getting rejected because of his “not-20/20” vision. He cried as he walked out, rejected from the role he had chosen after so much reflection.

Trust me, it has not been a single path, there was a lot of “running around and frantiacally searching of where to go”. This is a short “sweetened” version

sweet

Fuck you! Bricktop, it is just a fucking condiment. Yeeessh!

Explanation:
My reasoning for joining the army? I thought I could get a free dog and walk around in nature. They did not like that goal. Well, to be honest, maybe it wasn’t the most altruistic ambition, but hey, a free dog is a free dog.

Then, after painfully attempting to train my brain for front-end development, I got several opportunities to grow as a front-end developer. However, the expectation was that I’d be a unicorn (which was definitely not in the job description).
Some companies seem to have no clue what the title “front-end developer” means. They expect you to fix everything, regardless of your actual skill set. I guess they just throw random action words into job listings and expect miracles, without actually specifying the need for a “unicorn.”

So, my journey started in front-end development, but I soon realized I was doing more work as a Linux sysadmin. I decided to change paths. Again.

Fast forward to the present, and I am now some sort of a DevOps engineer (a demonic amalgamation of knowledge that no one—not even myself—can fully understand).

Now, don’t get me wrong. I am extremely grateful for where I am and for everyone who helped me get here… but…


Prologue
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crossroads

I think I am at a crossroads again.

  • Why do I need to choose again?
  • Why can’t I stay on this path and just go wherever it takes me?
  • Why do I always ask so many questions?
  • What am I looking for…?

Please stop!

question

I keep having a recurring dream where I’m killing myself—and everything I know—with a replacement.
“Erik, you need to get out of there, fast…”

The replacement is AI—or, in my case, a replacement for my job as a DevOps engineer.
Maybe I’m overexaggerating, but I feel like I contribute nothing when they discover the “GitHub Copilot” button.

Laugh if you will, but I get this sinking feeling that DevOps (or platform/cloud/sysadmin/insert fancy title) no longer requires a human being to execute the work anymore.

So please, Erik, read this… and remember where you once stood!

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